Welcome Home

He's back. At first I couldn't wait to see him. But things have changed. I have changed. I had just about convinced myself I didn't need him and then he came home. Now I'm just confused. Part of me wishes he would just leave already, at least that is clearer. Now I don't know what to do. What are we? Is it possible to be 'just friends' and 'f buddies' at the same time and not call it a relationship? I'm almost certain that's what we were before, but that was so close to the relationship line I almost went crazy. And now we face the same predicament. Do I put my foot down and say we are just friends or let myself be swept into that sort-of-relationship again? I think a more important question is: Am I strong enough to put my foot down and hold it there?