Update

I am confused. I simultaneously understand and don't understand what he wants and needs. It is very confusing. Friends don't seem to be working because I can't stop thinking sexually about him. Lol! That sounds terrible. But it's true. I think I'd like to try the fuck buddies thing. This will do two things: It will stop me seeing him frequently enough to remain attached, and, it will satisfy my physical urges. We will still talk on the phone frequently. Well, that's the plan.
I just realised, I am attached to him again. That is where the problems start. Damn. I didn't want this. Oh well, too late now. I turned down the hard. Woot. (I guess I'm supposed to finish this all optimistic with something about how I will grow as a person because of this subconscious choice, but it's my blog and I am not really thinking that far into the future at the moment.)